Dirty Kitty's Secret Place

Is that what you call a getaway, well what exactly did you getaway with.

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 01:46:41 GMT

helloo hello, well how's everbody doing.

Today = WTF What the hell is going on, school a bit better but not too much I hope everyone cheers up we need some group morale maybe we should all wear sexy outfits and turn each other on, just kidding. Group Orgy- Ah those were the days, maybe tomorrow.

So I died my hair again it is now bleach blonde, a total accident, seriously but it's all for the sake of my cosplay so I'm fine with and plus I like to make a change, and I am a pirate now. I've been playing Kingdom Hearts 2 and everyone needs to play it, it's soooo good, and one of the worlds is Pirates of the Caribbean, it's short but fun. Being a pirate would be so awesome, we could get some booty. I like Booty. , yeah, note the hypnotic head.o_O pretty

Now on to the not so fun stuff my Papa died today. It's wierd I wasn't like uber close to him but close enough for it to hurt some, I don't know if I would go to the funeral though cause it's probably in Georgia, my papa was a semi-famous gospel singer, don't ask how I spawned out of this family, but he was still going strong and singing a lot, they don't know what the cause of death was but I guess it was a heart attack he was in his 50's. so yeah... i guess I miss him.....

Anywho I'm sorry I"m so unlike this, this bird Simon he keeps squawking in my gawforsaken ear, and saying hello, HELLO ALREADY< GEEZ.

But I have nothing much more to say and I gotta go so see ya'll later.

"Nothing is more unnerving to the truly conventional than the unashamed misfit."

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 21:24:33 GMT

Well I got bored, her's another survey, I don't feel like typing. Today was alright I went to college again, but guess what,,,yet again I did not meet anyone. I think I'm cursed.

Two Names You Go By
1. Sami, (Sammy)
2. Little Bunny

Two Things That Scare You
1. Being alone.
2. If it's too dark.

Two of Your Everyday Essentials
1. Caffine
2. My collar probably

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now
1. A black hat,( I was once told it looked like the the hat of a missing Village People guy,in other words it's kinda gay. )
2. Jeans

Two Things You Want in a Relationship (other than Real Love)
1. Someone who understands me and I understand them
2. Someone who will love me for me

Two Truths
1. I'm over emotional because of my damn parents
2. I'm a jack-of-all-trades and really don't know what I wanna get outta life.

Two Physical Things that Appeal to You About the Opposite/Same Sex.
1. Eyes
2. Personality ( gotta have fun )

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies
1. Being with my friends
2. Drawing or at least trying.

Two Things You Want Really Badly
1. A trip around the world.
2. A car and my liscense, but I have to wait like 4 more months.

Two Places You Want to go on Vacation
1. Japan
2. London

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die
1. See all the places I want to see
2. Become skinny and pretty.

Two Ways That You're Stereotyped by People who don't know You
1. Nice. I'm not all sunshine dust.
2. Wierd, I guess cause of the way I dress.

Two Things You Are Thinking About Now
1. I wish it was time for the soccer game, cause I'm kinda bored.
2. When does the next Harry Potter come out.

Two Stores You Shop At
1. Hot Topic
2. Suncoast

Two things you'd rather be doing right now
1. Talking to someone besides myself.
2. Drawing.

Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last night?
A: MY own, I'm not a whore.

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
A: White and Black

Q: How many people on your list do you know in real life?
A: I think just about all of them.

Q: What color are your undies right now?
A: I don't remember... red

Q: Do you have any pets?
A: Yes.

Q: Most recent movie you watched?
A: Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, I love that movie

Q: Name 3 things that you have on you at all times?
A: Collar with the cat bell, money, cell phone.

Q: What's the color of your bed sheets?
A: Blue with stars, and a purple flowery one.

Q: Do you look like a celebrity?
A: I've been told I looked like Ashley Simpson but I hope not.

Q: Who's the 4th person on your received call list?
A: My dad

Q: What's your main ringtone on your phone?
A: the numa numa song or the suffering

Q: What were you doing at midnight last night?
A: South Park, I think

Q: What did the last text message recieved on your phone say?
A: Hello Samantha, How are you?

Q: How many people on your friends list are ex's?
A: One

Q: What is your favorite part of the chicken?
A: the breast, tee hee

Q: What's your favorite town/city?
A: I don't know

Q: I can't wait to...
A: Be so unbelievably happy I can't stop smiling for anything

Q: When was the last time you saw your mom?
A: One or two years ago, I don't like to keep up.

Q: What did you have for dinner LAST NIGHT?
A: Chicken Salad, they are so orgasmic.

Q: How long have you been at your current job?
A: Since October 3 and a half years ago.

Q: What's the last thing you said out loud?
A: ewww...Jeremy Fisher, you taste like soot and poo

Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A: An ugly wall.

Q: What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A: Shoes from my sister's friend, but I don't really wear them.

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: www.livejournal.com

Q: Do you have an air freshener in your car?
A: I don't have a car yet, but I will have air freshners

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
A: Yes my dead bonzai tree.

Q: If you could drink anything right now, what would it be?
A: Mello Yellow.

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: My leg and my head.

Q: What city was your last taxi cab ride in?
A: I've never been in a taxi

Q: Do you own a picture phone?
A: Yes I do and it's very fun.

Q: What's your favorite Starbucks drink?
A: White Chocolate Cappuchino

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
A: Couple days ago, I"m a bad person.

Life is supposed to be better,why do we have to be patient,someone needs to rethink it, it's stupid.

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 22:43:13 GMT

My life is stupid, throw me a damn pity party, it's better than no sympathy at all. I hate it, it's supposed to be better than this but it's not and it's making me really frustrated. People are pissing me of more now too, not my friends but just random people, why do you have to do things like scream and be a complete moron, with no morals or values or anything, I think people just do it so certain people will notice, well hey it doesn't work, so just go back to your stupid normal, boring, self. I'm kinda depressing but really, some things are so ridiculus I'd like to just cut myself up until I'm satisfied, but I won't. It's not right anymore.

Today was as stupid as it usually does seem to get, the Math graduation exam was retarded and I was surrrounded by some seriously idotic people, 2nd was stupid, we had this ancient guy telling us to the study guide every five seconds, 3rd- even stupider plus more work, 4th- I hate math., afterschool- watched some salad fingers and attempted to walk ashton to work but nooo..

whatever i gotta go to work, love ya'll, i think.
I need a phychologist. Desperately or a really good listener, Bye

Be yourself because the people who matter don't mind and the people who mind don't matter.

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 02:13:11 GMT

Hello people who care to read, how are we all doing, ok so

I officially hate all and any form of a Graduation Exam. Damn they are ridiculus, we had the history part today and I just so happened to lose my stupid study sheet, I think I might've failed oh well, I'll take it next time. And I hate my stupid seat, it's so bad, I'm in the very back seat in between some book shelves, at least we're aren't closterphobic, it's bad. And stupid Haley and her hair, she just has to flip it every five seconds and brush it. Aghh annoying and some chick was staring us down with her mouth wide open, hope she doesn't drown.

We kust finished watching the Harry Potter movie, it was very good, I' liked it they just went a little fast with it and oh poor Cedric, I wasn't a big fan of his but I think I almost cried.

Well I can't think of much more, I'm ok.. still searching, ok, well have fun guys, Love ya'll!!

Beauty is just the measurement of one's personality.

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 03:04:53 GMT

How are you hobags? I haven't much to say but oh well, who really does.

There was a soccer game today and I went to it because I love my friends too much to deny them the sight of me at a sport. Actually it's not that bad, I think the coaches need some good slaps in the face though, they wouldn't let some people play a whole lot, and even kept some injured people playing, that's just not right, in ways I'm really regretting not having joined up officially but if I had known that April would start working again I would be playing with everyone now. Ray and Theresa disapointed a bit too, I really thought they would show up, I hate it when my friends just leave me hanging around like that. I'm so so so sorry to everyone expecting them, I promise to give them a good talk and beg them to come to the next one.

I also regret having to take damn Geometry class, I hate it, I'm doing good I just hate it not looking forward to my days that much, I do, but the excitement usually ends after lunch, I wish all I had to do was take 1st and 2nd block, I really like those classes, the morning always seems the funest part of the day and then I get those occasional surprises. I"m actually glad we are having Graduation Exams next week, we don't have to that much. Anyway, I feel um... i guess depressed for myself and other people. I feel like I"m a better person if I help everyone else with their problems, especially the people that get me worried. I love to listen to them, I like to help, I wanna be accepted a little more though. Sometimes I stay up to late at night because I think too much at night about what i might have accomplished that day, I just depress myself, I wish I could do something better for everyone.

Before the soccer game today when I was just with the guys, David tried to grab my ass repeatedly, and tried to get me to make me make out with him behind the bleachers, he's not that bad of a guy but he just doesn't really get it. .. heh cheesehead. April also came upp there today yelling at me of course that I should have told her that I was going to the game, so I had to give her what little money I had in my pocket because she wasted like 2 minutes to come pick me up. I'm sorry I'm such a damn burden god, I wish I had my f-n car, i REALLY can't wait for the freedom.

I just went to this Harry Potter website out of fun to put in my name to see if could win a trip to London to meet the cast, by the way I didn't win but if I got enough votes then I could beat out the Amaerika person, I just need like 6,500 votes, but I did get this display randomly that said vote for your friend SamiH226 says Hermione Granger, tee hee, and it had Miss Emma as a background.

Speaking of Emma, I still apologize that I'm sort of obsessed, but I got her address and need to write her a lletter so if anyone's got some extra ideas, please share. Anyways

I am not short, stop reminding me off my vertiical challenges.
Well that's all I can complain about now, sorry for wasting space,.. Love you

It's our choices that show what we really are, not our abilities.

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 22:47:22 GMT

OMG I've got the most fucked up story, listen to this even though you will probably hear it from Ashton and Lacie too.

So me and Lacie decided we were gonna walk Ashton to work, and oh my god am I glad we did. So we get to our second intersection and look off to the right to see where all these sounds of people talking are coming from. Well there was like a group of ravenous WIGGERS walking towards us. The pack being led by Miss FAT ASS. Who was smoking, ok screw us for being curious, so we stare at them for like 15 seconds, Ashton said she had to take a double take to see if that chick was really as fat as she looked. Yep. So all the sudden the Wigger idiot guy starts shouting at us, he's like, and I quote, " HEY WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU LOOKING AT HUH, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING, DON'T LOOK AT US." wtf. Then all the chicks are calling us bitches and stuff and we are just ignoring them, because what's the point of even bothering when they are looking for a fight. Well the wigger goes "HEY CHICK DO YOU WORK AT SONIC," directed towards Ashton, again we don't answer, then he goes "HEY CHICK, YOU GOT A BIG ASS," obviuosly directed towards me cause Lacie has no ass, and Ashton's is far from fat. Again we ignore the stupid idiots laughing at us, then all the sudden something happens you wouldn't expect, Lacie turns around and screams MUther FUckers. They all laughed again and I think that was about the time that half of them went away. So now we have fat ass, wigger guy, some skinny skank, and Brittany Getts following us, but we were ahead pretty far so it's ok. We savely make it all the way to Sonic and I'm standing outside waiting for Lacie to come back out and fat ass, skinny skank, and Brittany Getts, walk past me staring and into the tent. When Lacie came out and Ashton came out to say bye they got up walked past us again staring and left and met up with their wiggers at McDonald's. Me and Lacie made it back save too, so it's ok.

Ya know I blame society for idiots like these, tee hee. But seriously if anything was said to Ashton or Lacie or they tried to get in our face I would've probably lost my temper, and fought back. We're such trouble magnets, either that or they were just blinded by our beauty.

But that's all I have time for, I gotta go to work, watch out for wiggers, Bye guys I love you all.

And again I remind you all of my lovely Emma Watson icon, yay i'm obsessed, nah!

Dodododo

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 13:39:03 GMT

I just had to update because of my icon, i'm a freak, I hope i don't get killed for it...... ;)

love ya'll.

Which is worst? To just die or to be forgotten. Answer : To be forgotten is worse than death.

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 19:15:28 GMT

Ponder this, if someone told you they were a patheological liar,... would you believe them.

Hello I haven't updated in what seems like ages, guess where I am again, yep college. I thought since there is nothing else to do today and really didn't feel like cleaning my room that I would go to college again in hopes of meeting those interesting people, but I haven't yet I have only met one friend, Emily i think. She's ok I wanna meet some more of them though. I still have a couple hours. So far I've spent most of my day watching Sailor MOon on a labtop.

Since everyone else says work sucks I think I'll say the same. My place of employment is very frustrating, you wouldn't think working with some of your relatives would be that bad but it is so don't ever find yourself in the situation, don't do it unless your greedy. I admit I like the money I get 150 a week thats more than enough in spending money, but it's kinda sad to because I can only buy things for myself cause I have no one to buy for.

The only good thing about work I'd say is extra reading time and hanging out with Ray and Theresa, they are awesome, if I'm not in a good mood they always cheer me up. I also found out something I didn't know, that Theresa is bisexual, I had no idea, Ray told me before I found out that she said if she wasn't going out with him she would so do me. I was like all right, someone actually likes me. woohoo finally. But I do have a crush and she's very pretty. And I think Emma Watson is very pretty, drool :) SHe plays Hermione of Harry Potter, I loves Hermione, but anyway I"ll stop being wierd. OH MY POOR VALENTINE'S CARD, I think I'll just print a picture of her and put it in my binder.

Thanks to Tad I've been giong around diong my Salad Fingers impressions.... the feel of this rusty nail on my salad fingers is almost orgasmic. I've even got the voice down, Tad you have to hear it.

....Would the ocean be deeper if there weren't any sea sponges on the bottom?

Let's see what to talk about, how bout school, it's okay, still the social aspect remains the highest, I'm doing okay in it, and Geometry's not that bad I just don't like the fact that Ms. Chafin makes me sleepy. And I don't like the concept of partner tests, so far we've only had one and my partner was Tyler and I think we pretty much got an A or B. I think Pychology is my favorite subject, it's not hard, you can sleep if you want, and you do kinda learn stuff. Interesting mental disorders.

Our anime convention is drawing closer, we are still having to work on the costumes and I just ordered my wig today. And Lacie if you don't raise your F's then you are getting your days cut. So I've been told.

Life's getting weirder is adolescence supposed to be this weird. It's getting awfully confusing has anyone else noticed?

Well i think I;m finished thank god not that anybody reads this stuff but ther's always hope. BYe Love ya'll.

We need don't need no education, just something that's sploogeworthy, i wish i had it, I try.

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 17:30:57 GMT

Hello guys, guess where I am, thats right I'm at college and ya'll are in 2nd block nananana, it's so cool here I wish I was smart enough to be in college. I'm in the library right now, and there are a lot of weird college people here staring( probably not in the good way ) Yay it's just like school. I feel bad about missing school but I didn't have any homework to turn in so it's ok. I did have a test in Geometry but it's on something I just got done doing in Algebra so it's easy. Otherwise I'm not missing much.

Well what to talk about, ok htis is my second time doing this stupid Lj because I accidently deleted my other one, stupid stupid stupid. That's ok.
The whole purpose of coming today was to meet some of April and Chelsea's friends, I'm excited, I haven't met any yet but maybe I will after. April's in Band right now and Chelsea's in History so I get to waste another hour here.

This computer's stupid it won't let you do two things at once so if you wanna look up something you have to close out the first thing. I can't listen to music so I have to listen to the people talking behind me, this guy keeps staring at me, it's creepy, I hope I don't get kidnapped.

Anywho, about something else, ow my wrist hurts, I got too emotional recently,(sorry Lacie)and my arm, and my head. But I'm ok.

I'm sorry about soccer, I would have played but the chick that Nanny wanted to hire to work turned out to be 15 not 16 so she can't drive herself. So I'm gonna work 5 days a week from now on, but on the bright side I get more money and that's always good maybe I can save enough and buy an I-pod or something, or clothes, more clothes.

My cell phone is f-n cool it's got everything, a camera, a recorder, everything. Yeah I spent 30 minutes the other day looking up ringtones for it but i couldn't find any, but then I found out that I can record something and set it as a ringtone so now I have the Final Fantasy 7 Fanfare on my phone, squeal.

We get to go to the Mall after college and I'm going to buy more stuff from Hot Topic, and play DDR.

Funny Story, I went in Nanny's room last night and asked if I could get a tongue peircing and screamed at me she was all like HECK NO YOU CAN'T GET A STUPID PEIRCING STOP GETTING HOLES IN YOUR BODY.!!!!! I left and then went back in later and asked if I could get a lip ring instead. Well i ran out of there cause I thought she was gonna throw something at me. Then the next morning she told me I better pick up that book( the bible) and read it/ I know she thinks I'm demonic. Ya know they might be passing a book that is gonna be an elective for all 9-12 graders called understanding the bible. KInda hope they don't I don't wanna take it and besides they aren't supposed to mix religion and school.

Well I think I'm done for the day so see ya guys later. Love ya bye

Sanity is the Playground for the Unimaginative

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 22:40:28 GMT

Hello again well not much to update on. I think I know what kinda person I wanna become, it's just gonna take some time to get there.

Let's see my legs are fucking killing me I wanna chop them off, but that would hurt and I would just end up being way shorter than I am and that's no fun. Well this week was crazy I don't think anyone has acted like their normal self. Me niether I just feel kinda depressed no major reason but ya know, but it's not bad.

I had a breakdown Tuesday over stupid and I set it off when I couldn't burn my cd, stupid huh, well I've got the cd now so it's ok and I'm getting two more from my 'big brother' Ray today if I remember.

Yeah I've got two makeshift ' big brothers' now Jesse and Ray, the good advice giver and the horny one.

I'm gettting this kick ass phone too, it's huge but it's got camera and freee music downloads and a lot of neato things i can't wait.

I gotta go to work now, see ya guys. Sorry for it being short I just haven't known what to write about.

"Why drink and drive when you can smoke dope, eat soap, and fly home in a bubble."

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 22:05:51 GMT

Hello again, friends. Today was the first day back to school and it was weird but ok.
I have Food Dynamics for first with Ashton, Lacie, and Hannah and preps galore. Yeah Ms. Miller challenged us to go 3 days without drinking Cokes and stuff with caffine, well I am drinking a Pepsi right now so ha fight the power. For second I have Phycology with Ashton, Alisha, and Kris and again preps and older peoples. Mr. Lewter made me wanna go to sleep very badly hopefully things'll get more interesting. When he was explaining the disorders I was thinking oh my god that sounds like me and so does that. Kinda scary what if someone had all those diseases at one time that would suck, is it possible. Anyway in third I have Advanced English with Lacie, Tad, Kris, and Chris. And unfortunately Josh is there and HE SITS BESIDE ME. That angers me slightly and to top it off Hannah Gladden, MISS FUCKING PETER COTTONTAIL, sits behind him, nooooo kill me now. And fourth is Band, now I am debating a lot if I wanna stay in or not because I do and the music is cool but there are times where I don't like it, but I wanna get Math out of the way too but I just wanna be lazy and not do a whole lot this semester. We'll see.

We had to get AR books today, it feels like it has been forever since I've taken English, I couldn't decide so I just got the Harry Potter books 1 and 2 because I haven't read them yet. And we played with Tad's balls, and Kris is getting some tomorrow. I have to bring eveyone else's tomorrow, I was gonna today but we were pushed on time.

I started this new anime called Burst Angel it is soooo cool and it's belive it or not a spagetti western meets giant robots, and its got a lot of yuri moments between the main characters. So if anyone's interested.

Well I gotta sorry it's been short. Bye Love ya

I think I'm dumb, maybe just happy- Kurt Cobain

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 06:09:33 GMT

Choose a band/artist and answer the following questions using only their song titles as answer.

Band: System of a Down

1. Are you male or female?
U-Fig

2. Describe yourself.
Vicinity of Obscenity/ Pshyco

3. How do SOME people feel about you?
She's Like Heroin

4. How do you feel about yourself?
Chop Suey!

5. Describe your ex-girlfriend/ex-boyfriend.
Sad Statue

6. Describe current girlfriend/boyfriend.
Dreaming

7. Describe where you want to be.
Lost in Hollywood

8. Describe how you live.
Violent Pornography

9. Describe how you love.
Hypnotize

10.What would you ask for if you had just one wish?
Stealing Society

11.Share a few words of wisdom.
This Cocaine Makes Me Feel Like I'm High On This Song

12.Favourite things.
Chic N Stu

13.Describe your day.
Lonely Day

14.Now say goodbye.
Cigaro

Ok well I thought this was kinda cool but my answers are probably stupid oh well.

So guess what I got a guage in my ear, yay. It's a 16 I think, it's just the earring though right now but soon I will stretch it. I'm exited.

Work sucked, OMG we had a group of 35 people come in for a family reunion, that shit was crazy. And to top it off they were all rednecks. Kill me. not really it was bad but I stood out front to see how many people would stare, lets just say a lot of them did.

Lacie looks adorable in her Sonic outfit. Tee hee

My grandma pissed me off, she said me and Ray were weird and looked stupid in the way we dressed. Geez. I was wearing my System of a Down shirt and he was wearing his Coheed and Cambria shirt, that woman pisses me off really bad I cannot wait to move. But we might get uniforms she said we might She also made fun of my collar, I like it and she can just keep to herself, I agreed that if we get uniforms I won't wear my collar or bracelets, and I will pin my bangs back. Wow what a sight, people will have to come to see that.

I can finally draw again, Yayyyyyyyy!

Well I don't have much more to say, I think I made Zach and Jeff mad or sad when I showed them my gauge earring or maybe they just don't like it when I talk to them. whatever.

Ok bye- love ya'll.

Sometimes a whisper can mean more than speaking aloud.

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 04:54:04 GMT

My life is bullshit, sorry to start it out this way but it's the hardcore truth. I love it but I hate it, hey it could be the break, ya think. I hate these long breaks they suck so much ass. And school gonna suck a lotta ass too fo the first days. Eh, i hate this, don't get mad at me just cause I wanna write how I truley feel at this moment, like shit, yes you heard me. But I can't do anything.

I wanna move out of my house desperately I can't stand it anymore, my grandma won't shut up and shoves her religion down my throat, I'm sorry I don't believe in anything but Karma, I can't even believe in myself, it's so sad. Sometimes I wish I could go away like there really is no need for me, but I hope there is and I'm tired of pretending and trying to get something in return, the real me is a sad sad person, why? I don't really know. But don't ask to much I don't even know the answers. I hate my life sometimes. But I just know that it's gonna get better, there is something and someone out there for me.. I hope, god do I hope.

I just shed a tear, shit, I didn't mean to, I hope no one notices. My step mom said I could live with her and Daddy but I can't stand to be around him for more than like 5 minutes, I hate him so.

My New Year plans were ruined I had it all worked out too, but nothing goes right for me, what exactly did I do to karma, this sucks so much. I'm still going over Jesse's, but it will probably only be me him and april, maybe Chelsea and Lacie, I think I'm gonna get drunk and sit out in the rain, it sounds good, I now would like to spend New Year's alone like the last two New Year's, but apparently whatever you do on New Year's is what you do all year, pfft, yeah, it might be true, last year I was by myself and trying to draw picture but I couldn't, I think thats why all my drawings were crap this year. Also apparently you are supposed to get a New Year's kiss but that ain't happening either. I hate New Year's, crap, Zach asked me out on New Year's , there's another reason to dread it. Not because of you Zachary, just cause I hate bad memories. Oh yeah on January 8, I wish to be left alone so I can crawl under a rock and suffer, thats also gonna be bad. geez

this new year better rock my socks off or I am definetly running away and not giving it another thought.

Wow I just reread this it is really selfish, but it is my livejournal, so if you don't care to read about me, then don't bother. I'm sorry I'm in the worst possible mood right now. So I'm gonna go and shut up while I'm ahead. I'll see ya'll in the New Year. sigh, have a good time whoever you spend it with.

Bye I love you, maybe. But I hate me.

"I don't suffer from insanity. I enjoy every minute of it."

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 21:00:46 GMT

Yay 'ello again, we just got back from shopping, it was pretty fun. I spent ever single bit of the 243 dollars except maybe 2 dollars, yay I'm rich.

Let's see I bought all of everyone's gift and put some on hold until next week, but I pretty much have them and I hope everyone likes their gifts. I also got myself a bunch of neat things. I got a hoody from HOt Topic, it's Nirvana, it's not the smiley face one though it's the one with the hand and the guitarand it says Nirvana, yay I'm wearing it, I got some more bracelets- some black and clear ones and one with stars on it and an armband with stars on it, it glows in the dark, I also got that other Gir shirt I liked the one that says I feel pretty, and I got a belt that has a bunch of skulls on it. I think that's it. I also got the Nirvana cd- it has their 14 favorite songs on it, which means all the really good ones.

Oh it was the cutest thing, these two little girls were watching me play ddr by myself and one of them was hitting the other one and the other one was hitting her parents to mmake them watch me, they watched me do Captain Jack, and spin circles on Speed Over Beethoven, then I did Tsugaru in challenge and these big dudes were behind me going ooooohhhh and I passed and got off and they were just staring at me with their mouth wide open, and then I limped out to get food. And all I got out of it was a hurt ankle. I think I'm definately getting all soccer conditioning in. I hope I make the team.

I'm a bad person I was throwing my drink away and I didn't notice the trash dudes had already taken the can out and I threw it in there. And I was all OH MY GOD, WHAT THE HELL DID I DO, I JUST RUINED THE TRASH DUDE'S DAY, NOOOO it was sad and I feel bad about it, I'm sorry trash dude, so so sorry.

well I'm done I love you and I will leave ya'll with some quotes: K

"Sticks and stones are hard on bones, aimed with angry art. Words can sting like anything, and silence breaks the heart."

"Smile. It scares people."

"Boys are like slinkies, you laugh when they fall down the stairs."

""Why do closed-minded people open their mouths?"

"It's nice to be important, but it's more important to be nice."

"A dress makes no sense unless it inspires men to want to take it off you."

"Friendship is an eternal hug while true love is the lasting kiss."

"When people are laughing, they're generally not killing each other"

"NeVeR GiVe Up I want you to know who I really am I never though I'd feel this way towards you And if you ever need someone to come along I will follow you, and keep you strong"

"Just because someone dosen't love you the way you want them to, dosen't mean they don't love you with all they have. "

Ok is that enough do ya'll even like these, well I do, forget you.

All the candy is mine..muhahaha

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 15:04:41 GMT

I've been eating way too much , I'm gonna get fat but it's soooooooo good.

We get to go shopping today and by we I mean me, April, Lacie, and Chelsea, should be fun. I've got like 300 bucks to spend, so I'm getting everyone's gifts so the guilt will stop haunting me.

Yesterday sucked but it was supposed to be happy so I'm putting off people's impending doom, heh heh, no just kidding.

How can someone be in such a good mood this early?

I got Invader Zim for a present from Zachary and I enjoyed very much , so thank you.

Ok bye Love ya'll, time for shopping.

ahhh

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 21:58:57 GMT

OH GREAT AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF, i THINK I'M F-N SICK NOW.

Merry Christmas...and I wish it would die.

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 21:55:00 GMT

So 'ello, yeah I haven't updated in forever but I haven't really got out of the house, eh well I did enough to go to Ashton's house on a bike with damn cows humping in the field eww, I was horrified and chased by wienie dogs, I also went to work Friday and we had a party afterward I got a System of a Down shirt, it's awesome and a neat box thing ( I put all my candy in it. ) I also got a gift card for Suncoast and 10 dollars worth of coins at the arcade in the mall. Well Yesterday we had a party at my Aunt's house, it was ok, we played this neat game called Boxer's or Brief's it's fun, umm we did gag gifts and I got those edible panties from Spencers, they are really good. I kinda felt left out though, it was either be by myself, talk to the adults, talk to Ray and his girlfriend who made out all the time, or play ddr, and I already did that. So it was ok but I guess I'm just not much for a party with no one to talk to.

I'm depressed and I have been fo a little while now, I think it's coming back to haunt me. oh great. I fell lonely too but that's my fault I really don't know but I don't want my depression back.

Well again Merry f-n Christmas, there's just something about this holiday I don't like, can't describe it though. I got a bunch of candy and make-up, I got this hoody too, it would be better if it was black but it's red and it says 23, woo, and I got a bunch of money. I need to go shopping so I will soon. I hope it's hard to get people to go shopping with me cause I'm so damn picky, Ray said he would but he's got a girlfriend now so thats out of the question, she's alright though and obviously prettier than me, I talked to her for like 5 minutes. I'm jealous that everyone has relationships and I'm dumb and can't keep one because of my damn confusing personality, they're cute though and so is everyone else with a goddamn relationship, me and Lacie just need to like run away. Oh wait she has a boyfriend too even if he is only imaginary.

Oh my head hurts, I don't know what to do anymore so I'll shut up , so there I updated and sorry for my mood. Love ya'll.

Dance the dance of life and have fun doing it.

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 22:59:02 GMT

Ello, if you remember any of my recent entries I said that there was a surprise for everyone MOnday, well it was hair, yay I'm excited about it. I like it very much, and if you don't shove it I don't wanna hear it, I strive for the compliments..., if ya don't know what it looks like it's very short and sorta brownish red. I'm just excited that everyone liked it. I got this older lady in Wal-mart and she probably called me a picky person, but she did say she loved my bangs, I was like good don't touch them at all. lol

I can't stop looking in the stupid mirror. This makes the ....3..4..5.. 6th time I died my hair. wow! It's probably not good for it. oh well, anyway

Thank you all for all my gifts, I love them so very very much, thank you Ashton for the neat box that now houses all my arm jewerly and, the earrings, and the armband. Thank You Hannah for the pajama pants, I'll wear them a lot, and the tiger-we named him Jack the Stripper. Thank you Mackenzie for the really fun whip, I'll use on them when I get someone- I've already mastered it. Thank You Alisha for the Mascara that I'll use a lot and the armband, and gum, and the cute chopsticks. Thank you Tad for the Gir shirt, it's just adorable, and Thank You Lacie for the loads of Candy that I am gonna get too fat off of... Ok done.

I hate Christmas music, how many times do I have to say that, ahh, but it's everywhere ya go. I went to the Mall Saturday and decided oh I'll go with Ray maybe we'll get a little closer, nope it felt like I was talking to myself the whole frickin time, what an idiot, and he was another reason I didn't get any shopping done. He sucks and I don't wanna try anymore to impress him sincce he's just gonna bang this other chick, I need a person who at least listens. Oh and believe me I gave him a little bit of a hard time about it, he said he was paying attention then starting talking about something stupid. Guys are stupid and defensive, we're no better, but geez.

I don't really wanna go to this stupid concert tonight, but I want to so I can get one last look and hugs and conversations in since I won't see ya'll, I am gonna be so depressed over the break without ya'll, wahhhh. Nelson ticks me off some he's all happy and stuff around the Band but you try to talk to him in person and he's like no I don't like you, like that one time I talked to him, I'm sorry I don't wanna be in Band for Concert Season but I desperately need to catch up on my f-n math, he doesn't really care, and I have to write him a stupid note telling him all this I should write you asshole on it, I wanna come back for band and not just for the trips, I like band the trips are just a plus, but if he doesn't let me, oh well I'll find something else.

well ok I LOVE YOU ALL and I'll see you soon don't forget to keep updating and I'll end with this thing.
Bye!!!!

1. What is your middle name? Samantha, my first is Aaron, damn parents.

2. Last person you kissed? Does my cat count.

3. What are you listening to right now? Oprah and 95.1

4. what are the last 2 digits in your phone number? 93

5. What was the last thing you ate? Crispitoes at lunch.

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be and why? Purple, I don't know I always loved the color to me it reminds me of mixing together all the happiness and sadness and you get a beautiful color like that, and I'd like to be beautiful too.

7. How is the weather right now? It feels nice to me but I guess cold to other people.

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Chelsea

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex? I hope they have pretty eyes.

10 favorite type of Food? Chinese.

11. Do you drink? If I can and then on special occasions.

12. Do you smoke? No because it is one of the most disgusting things ever, but I have before.

13. Ever get so drunk you dont remember what you did? There was that one time...but I was told later I had too much wine and ran around in my 7 year old step brother's army hat and hit walls, I don't remember.

14. Hair color? Naturally dirty blonde, right now brownish-red.

15. Eye color? Sometimes blue, sometimes green, sometimes gray.

16. Do you wear contacts? Nope

17. Favorite Holiday? Halloween

18. What something you hate about yourself? I'm too confusing, but I'm not trying.

19. Have you ever cried for no reason? Yeah of course.

20. Last Movie you Watched? At home or the movies? The Hunter and the Hunted in stupid Biology class, it was about some guy getting lost in Australia and killed by dingos.

21. Is there something that you regret doing at this moment? Breaking hearts.

22. Are you too shy to ask someone one out? Not exactly.

23. If you can say something to someone right now what would it be? Either "I love you and wanted to tell you for a long time" or "Damit Coach Gray get Lyposuction in your ass."

24. Hugs or Kisses? I want both, I love them both, can I have them both.

25. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate I guess, can I have Strawberry.

26. Do you want your friends to respond? Repost? Yes and Yes

27. Who is most likely to respond? Zachary, Ashton, and Lacie

28. Who is least likely to respond? .....

29. What books are you reading? Do comics count cause I read Wish and Hanna Kimi vol. 9 last night.

30. Piercings? Two in both of my ears, I want one more in each and a barbel in the top of my ear.

31. Favorite movie? The Phantom of the Opera, or any musical or horror movie.

32. favorite basketball team? Basketball sucks

33. what are you doing? Typing this

34. Any pets? T.J., Molly, Joe, Bear, and Ginny

35. AIM? Yes, I;m logged on right now.

36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? butter and salt, please

37. Cats or Dogs? Black Cats preferably

38. Favorite Flower? Roses or dandelions, they are fun to blow...heh heh

39.Have you ever been caught doing something you werent supposed to? Playing ' doctor ' with a cousin.

41.Have you ever loved somone? Yes, and I do now.

43.Are you still friends with your ex's? Yes but only two of them.

44. Have you ever fired a gun? No but I've come close.

45. Do you like to travel by plane? Never have, so I couldn't tell you

46. Right-handed or Left-handed?: Ambidexterious

47. If you can be with someone right now, who would it be? Why do ya wanna know?, friends duh

48. How many pillows do you sleep with? 7 I think and I hug my squishy one.

49.Do you have a tatoo? Nope, but I will have them.

50. Can you see your self married? No one would want to marry me, but I could maybe see it.

[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[X] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[X] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have(had and gettin it again) piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have orange freckles.

Family/Home Life

[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've ran away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work

[x] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[X] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired. (I'm looking forward to it)
[X] I've skipped school.

Embarrasment

[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x]I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ]I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've fractured a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling

[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. (Do it all the time)
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing
[X] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[X] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships

[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[x] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality

[x] I have a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I have a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime

[X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[X] I've cheated while playing a game.
[X] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide

[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[x] I've attempted suicide
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Political/Social Attitudes

[ ] In general, I don't like people.
[x] I'm a feminist. (sorta...not really)( some guys are stupid )
[x] I'm outgoing.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I'm Democratic
[ ] I'm Republican.
[ ] I'm liberal.
[ ] I'm religious.
[X] I dress fairly modestly.
[x] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."

Random

[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[X] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[X] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[X] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] My answers are totally honest.

I am truly truly a bad person aren't I?

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 05:11:26 GMT

Why are things turning out like this? I hate I want things to be better, so why can't I make them?, It sucks and it hurts me a lot, but I don't show it, all I wanna do is smile, that's bad, I don't wanna be selfish, I hate that, slap me if I am. Please don't hurt yourself Zachary on my account, it's stupid, please I can't make you stop, but I don't deserve that kinda attention, I guess I understand you ignoring me better now, it hurts. I wanna be friends, but it's all too confusing.

I wanna cry. Does anyone care.
I know ya'll do, I hate being emotional, I want so desperatly to kill that part of me. I'm sorry I'm just a stupid emotional girl, I'm sorry I'm the way I am. I going to change. Takes time and I'm impatient.

I'm sorry ya'll don't like my entries like this,but I can't be happy all the time, my mind at so much unease right now. I wish things were the way I wanted them to be. but no again that's selfish

You know why I love to help other people, 1. I fall in love and I love people too much to not help them cause I absolutely hate with a pasiion when other people get down, I'm gonna try my damndest to fix it, especially if I caused it. 2. It also helps get my mind off my problems and sometimes I find the answers to mine through ya'lls.

I feel like a wreck, believe it or not the gun was seeming good half an hour ago. But I won't ever resort to anything like that again, I wanna die sometimes, but I just know deep down that something great in life is waiting for me, I hope it's soon. I wanna be needed.

Did ya know my name means listener in Hebrew, I found that out recently, thought it was neat enough to share.

Please don't feel as though you have no ability to talk about this kinda stuff with me, you do so much, that I could just tell you in a heartbeat everything. I'm just easy to break down.

Is it fair to not wanna buy your dad a gift because you hate his guts to no extend, one of the only people who makes my blood boil. When I get pissed off it's not pretty, please stand back at a safe distance.

Well I definatly feel a little better but there are so many things left untold, that I can't say or ya'll couldn't comprhend, I am so different and yet the same. Make sense. No.

On a brighter note, I am going to the Mall tomorrow for the Christmas presents and I'm also gonna check out this other really neat place.

There's also another surprise for everyone Monday, bet ya can't wait, well to bad.

Well that's enough fo now, I LOVE YOU , and you, and you, and you, ah hell all of you. Epecially you, *wink* , ha joking.

Our bodies are like 80% water, so you round that up, we are like totally water---from fruits basket.

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 22:30:25 GMT

1. Are you eating anything right now: No , I'm not very hungry

022. How about drinking: yes I am drinking a Mellow Yellow

023. What do you smell like: Wild Blossom perfume and Aussie shampoo

024. Name three of the most embarrassing CD’s in your collection: I like all of mine

025. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Yes. A black kitty called Kuroneko.

026. Favorite 80’s song: Like a Virgin- I think it's 80's

027. Do you watch Lifetime: I watch it if I can.

028. Are you gay: Honestly, yesh I am about halfway- 50%

029. What’s the first thing you notice about the preferred gender: Eyes, hair, fashion sense. Eh

030. What turns you on about the preferred gender: Freclkes, glasses, pretty eyes, them smelling nice.

032. What song do you totally and completely hate: Anything by Kid Rock, or country music.

033. What song could you listen to for hours: Vicinity of Obscenity, Cigaro, Lonely Day, Twisted Transistor, Chic-N- Stu, anything by SOAD or Korn pretty much.

035. Do you download music: yes all the time

067. Do you have a crush: Yes, but I can't say, it's a secret, I like two people.

068. Are you a racist: Not at all

069. Do you shop at Hot Topic: Everytime I go to the Mall.

070. Are you old: It feels like it, sometimes, but I'm not.

071. Are you sexy: I don't think so. And it's really not up to me.

072. Will you go out with me: Well I'm single but I need to get to know you more, a whole lot more.

073. Are you anti-social: It depends who I am hanging out with.

074. Do your parents think you are: I personally don't care what they think about me.

075. Do they nag you constantly to get out of the house: I don't live with them.

076. Have you ever shoplifted: Yes I have, in Disney World too, it was a Sprite.

077. Are you tired: Physically- no, Mentally- yeah a little.

078. Five things you are wearing: socks, jeans, Pink Floyd shirt, Pink Floyd armband, skull chopsticks

086. What is your sign: Cancer

087. Do you wear glasses: no I don't.

088. Do you drink: Not a whole bunch but sometimes.

089. Got any pets: A cat and a dog.

090. Favorite type of music: Punk Rock and Heavy Metal, and the occasionaly Pop.

091. Favorite actor: Johnny Depp, he's hot.

092. Favorite actress: Angelina Jolie, she's hot.

093. Favorite movie: Phantom of the Opera

094. Favorite soda: Mellow Yellow

095. Favorite food: Ramen, or Pocky to snack on

096. Favorite car: Hummer, or a Lambergini Diablo, but I'll never get one in a million years.

097. Favorite song: Lonely Day by System of a Down

098. Favorite color: Dark Purple.

099. Favorite TV show: Family Guy , Will and Grace, Viva La Bam, and some reality t.v.

100. Favorite brand of beer: Beer is disgusting

101. Favorite brand of liqueur: Smirnoff twisted, baby

102. Favorite brand of clothes: Tripp, or Zoey Beth

103. Favorite online chat thing: Aim.

104. Favorite shape: I love stars.

105. Favorite texture: cold and smooth.

106. Favorite game: any Final Fantasy, Fire Emblem, there's too many to name.

107. Favorite place: My room, a friend's house, school, or work.

108. Favorite year: maybe 2006

109. Favorite holiday: Halloween

110. Favorite animal: Black cats, or bunnies

112. Have you ever lied: Of course.

113. Do you lie often: Not much anymore, there's no point it doesn't get you anywhere.

114. Would you tell a lie that stopped your death but caused the death of your lover: Hell No, I would die before my lover ever had to.

115. Would you lie to get laid: Depends, probably not though.

116. Are you single: Yes, but i wish I wasn't

117. Ever been in love: Yes. sorta

118. How many times: 2

119. Looking back do you regret it: No. I Regret pissing him off and breaking his heart.

120. Are you happy with your current status: I like to flirt, but I wish it could get me somewhere.

121. Are you still holding on to the past: I do but I'm working at it.

122. Do the following apply to you:

123. Charming: Maybe
124. Quiet: yes sometimes
125. Loud: Yes sometimes
126. Pretty: I'm all right
127. Radical: no?
128. Sucky: sometimes
129. Smart: Yes.
130. Stupid: No.
131. Dumba**: No.
132. Ugly: I probably am.
133. Slow: Sometimes.
134. Fast: Depends.
135. Talented: Yes.
136. Useless: I hope not.
137. Punk: yes it is my 'classification.'
138. Young: I don't feel young
139. Old: I don't feel so old.
140. Daring: Yep.
141. Courageous: Depends
142. Caring: Depends on who you are.
144. Athletic: I could be if I wanted to
145. Artistic: Yeah I draw pretty good.
146. Sexy: i don't think so.

147. Is the following good or bad:
148. Love: Good
149. Happiness: Good
150. Rap: bad
151. Pain: good and bad
152. Pop music: some is ok
153. Sex: good, i suppose
154. TV: good.
155. Country music: bleh
156. Metal music: Very good.
157. Nu-metal: good.
158. Death metal: good
159. Industrial: good
160. Punk rock: also good
161. Easy listening: so so
162. Korn: Very Very good
163. Murderous Rampages: eh
164. Sega: Good
165. Nintendo: Good...ah snes.
166. Play station: good
167. Game boy: good
168. Chinese food: I love it
169. Italian food: good
170. Japanese food: Good
171. Mexican food: good
172. Online quizzes: good
173. Online surveys: good

174. What's your deep dark secret: When I can't make people happy, I cry

175. What's your biggest fear: Being ignored or drowning in a dark area

176. What is the most embarrassing thing that's happened to you: Sometimes I say the wrong things

177. Would you make a good candidate for Jerry Springer: I never wanna be senn on it.

178. Do you agree that a DVD is much better than a VHS: my VCR doesn't work , so yeah.

179. Do you hate America: Just the way it's run, why can't we be like Japan?

180. Do you think Bush is doing a good job: I don't like him that much for personal reasons and he just sorta gives off the 'duh' vibe, I liked Bill Clinton, he got laid and did his job well.

181. Are you going to heaven: Does it exist?

182. Are you going to hell: Does it exist?

183. First best friend ever: Jamie

184. Love is: A feeling you can't describe but you know you have it.

185. Who was your first love: either Michael or Zachary truly

186. Love or lust: Both are good, but I like love better

187. Best love song: Sick Love Song- Motley Crue

188. Is it possible to be in love with more than one person at the same time: I love a lot of people, but it's hard to find who I'm in love with, but I might have an idea.

189. When love hurts you: die a little inside, but learn to cope with a different love of work it out

190. Do your parents' opinion of your boyfriend/girlfriend matter to you: no. I don't care it's my decision

191. How are you today: half happy, half anxious

192. What does your hair look like right now: Blonde and dangely, but not for long.

193. What song are you listening to right now: Violent Pornography

194. How is the weather right now: cold, somewhat comfortable

195. What are the last four digits of your phone number: 7393

196. If you were a crayon, what color would you be: some shade of purple

197. How many kids do you want to have: at least one, maybe

198. How many TVs do you have in your house: three

199. Do you have your own TV: Yes

Well hi read this if you want, but I gotta go to work, but nothing much has happened.

"I am irrevocably committed to being permantely indecisive."

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 22:20:05 GMT

Thank you everyone for the sexy gifts listed below.

Today was ok, but I'm excited on the inside cause we only have like two days left, Yes!!!

I hate it when you get bored and you have nothing better to do then think way too much for your own good, it sucks, but not all of it is bad thinking I suppose.

I HATE Christmas music, it is so happy and annoying, and the Band played it this morning and they are gonna play it tomorrow, ugh, i don't like it, Christmas is too ya know, it reminds me of things I don't neccesarily believe in and family togetherness, screw that!

I went to the couselers office today and finally somewhat got my schedule changed, he said it is ok if I get Geometry for 4th, yay, I can finally catch up and be in a class with normal people not skank hoe cheerleaders, speaking of which I don't know if ya'll noticed that pretty much half the cheerleading squad is in I.S.S. * chuckle* yeah they wrote stuff on the bathroom walls and got caught, so I heard. Makes me sad that was my idea. Oh well.

I cannot wait until I'm 18, I can move and graduate, and get peircings and tatoos,it'll be fun, I hate when I have my way but that's just me being selfish. Anyway,

There's this chick on tv she's had like 26 plastic surgery operations, it's crazy and people that hurt themselves because they think they are ugly, this one chick on here is really pretty but she thinks she is like the ugliest person on earth. People shouldn't think that they have to look like someone in a magazine, everyone is an individual, or so says Oprah.

So I'm back to square one, I'm not going out with Ray because he said he might have a chance with this one chick at his school, he said he might get layed, but it's ok we probably wouldn't work out, and I can just be one of his friends and what happens, happens.

Ok I outta of things to say, love ya'll

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	The Twelve Days of Christmas for dagger488:

Day #	Who?	What they got you

1st	rhaerose	a small, laminated card stating, 'ALL ACCESS - TO ME!'
2nd	julietstears	the complete works of the Marquis de Sade, on tape
3rd	catgirl333	a pop-up kama sutra
4th	starry_mist	a confused homeless man bearing a sign that says, 'i'm a slave for you'
5th	sephiroth_safer	A bottle of everyman's Viagara
6th	kirei_otakugirl	The Marquis de Sade's sex drive
7th	xgwen_lvrx	a gigantic vagina in your yard, drawn in flaming gasoline
8th	julietstears	a full-body condom
9th	catgirl333	A genital piercing
10th	sephiroth_safer	a feather and a magnum of champagne
11th	battlerage	a feather and a magnum of champagne
12th	rhaerose	a sex slave

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When I die...............

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 20:43:04 GMT

You will become a ghost: nothing unusual,
revengeful, strong than the ordinary,
depressed. You intend to see the life of the
others. You can appear anytime, morning to
night. You can cause scary and peaceful moments
to the people around you depending on how you
feel.

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Writing- a creative sense made by someone's thoughts and expressed on paper,..thats my definition.

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 20:29:16 GMT

Make people happy! That's the motto for today.
To make someone happy, I think you do everything in your power to do so. Whether it be the little things or the gigantic things. Sometimes it doesn't take much, sometimes it takes a whole bunch. Try to talk to the person, find out their mood, like I said before you can always tell someone's mood by their face. And if you are not observent enough to notice someone's facial expression, then you are an idiot. Find a solution, compromise, promise, communtication. Put people ahead of yourself. Selfishness doesn't deserve any sorta accomplishment. It's ok to wanna set goals for yourself, by all means please do, without those you don't get anywhere. Oh- Reachable goals perferably. And do it now, starting now, hurry up come on hurry.

Ok sometimes I just blank out like that but there's an idea there. I'm doing a Tag, it is gonna be write 5 things you like about yourself and 5 things you don't like about yourself and I'll start it and tag 3 people when you are finished. Ok here we go:

5 things I like about myself
-----------------------------
1. I like my eye color for some weird reason.
2. I like my ability to stay calm during frantic chaos.
3. I like my ability to draw a semi-decent picture.
4. I like my weirdness, embrace your weirdness.
5. I like my style and my ways.

5 things I don't like about myself
-----------------------------------
1. I hate the way I look and act.
2. I hate my confusing personality.
3. I hate being too impatient.
4. I hate the way I was brought up.
5. I hate hurting people's feelings.

OKIES AND NOW I TAG:
------------------------
LACIE, ASHTON, and ZACHARY

Ok so yeah thats my tag, needless to say I was able to think of a ton of more stuff I could put down for the things I hate about myself, but only 5.

So work was crazy yesterday, we were all running back and forth, cause we got too busy, and every time we got finished they would bring another ticket back, oh well it's over and all I got was 22 dollars, I'll have to wait until next week for ya'll's Christmas gifts. Hope that's ok. After work Ray tought me a few tricks and I f-n broke my f-n skateboard again, argggg! And then he asked me again what my answer to us going out was, and I told him straight up, well I do not think that I am quite ready yet and that I wanted to wait some more before I decided, I told maybe sometime in 2006, I will think on it, and he said that was fine, he doesn't mind the wait. So huzzah all I gotta do is get my priorities in order.

Ok well gotta go love you .

First kisses are innocent and slow showing shyness, then time passes they become wild & passionate.

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 22:17:35 GMT

Ok I got that from a fanfiction summary but ya'll probably don't wanna read it. It's a yuri.

So I thought I'd update before I went to the workplace, woo!

Well today was lovely, well it wasn't bad at all, that's the good things about Mondays and Fridays, On Mondays you haven't seen people in like two days, and Fridays you are so happy to have a break, so those are probably my best days. I'm ot a Wednesday person, is it just me or is like Hump Day cursed to be a sad day.

We have a man slave ranch now , I'm exited we need to make that a reality so I can be the circus master chick or whatever it is.

Well Ray has asked me out twicw, yay, it's exciting that someone likes me, at least someone does, ya know, but I won't go out with him right now, I don't think I'm ready I'll wait and see, but I'm still exploring, sorta, well you can't really put yourself out there too much cause most people won't realize it, so I'm just gonna be borderline, debating on going out with someone or not. Eh, weird stuff.

I cannot wait for your f-n party Ash it's tomorrow yay, it's gonna be fun I promise and if anyone tries to make it bad I will beat you down, got that. You do not make someone else's party bad, so there.

Ok I gottaa go sorry it was short love ya'll.

Look beyond the words and appearances, on to the beutiful eyes, behind those lay all the secrets.

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 23:36:32 GMT

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In June I pulled over and changed battlerage's flat tire (15 points). In August I gave julietstears a wet willie, then I took it back (-5 points). Last Monday I ruled Iran as a cruel and heartless dictator (-700 points). In September I gave rhaerose a kidney (1000 points). In May I committed genocide... Sorry about that, sephiroth_safer (-5000 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-4690 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich!

Sincerely,
dagger488

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You're a Freaky Kisser

When you kiss, you want to experience something new
A new technique, a new partner, a new piercing...
And your own personal kissing style is very unpredictable

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Lazy Philosopher.

Where You Lived: Germany.

How You Died: Buried alive.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

Ok I got bored and took some quizzes, these were the really interesting one. I like the kiss one, it's good.

Melt in the sun, melt in the sun, who wants to come with me and melt in the sun. heh heh

So how are ya'll, I'm feeling better, sorry about yesterday, I actually didn't get to finish the updating, so it's all me being mad, I cheered up and realized that it was stupid if I'm just gonna quit band for a little while, I'm considering quitting for good, cause Nelson doesn't like me and he said I hate when people quit cause they only come back for the trips, well geez. I wasn't even gonna come backk just for the trip but if you are gonna be that way about it, I'll find something better to do, it just kinda makes me sad that I won't get to see my best friends as much, but there is always soccer, if I even make the team, and our lovely parties.

Dawn and Josh piss me off, but ya'll knew that, not them being together personally if Dawn wants to listen to all the bitching we put in and we know we are right about them, but she still refuses to dump him, then she is not worth talking to about that. But what they did was this: So Dawn asks me and Lacie if we are trying out for soccer, Um... YEah, where the hell have you been, and she's like ok but ya'll know we have to run a lot, me( sarcastically) : NOOO, I THOUGHT WE JUST STOOD THERE, in conclusion basically they said that we really need to start running,( which we do), and that DDR and skateboarding isn't enough, and it really doesn't help your legs, bs i'd like to see you snap someone's neck with your legs. SHUT THE HELL UP. ERG

Anywho I cannot wait for your party Ashton, I'm sure it will be loads of fun, and the presents.

Oh well interesting news, I don't know if ya'll knew but Marylin Manson yeah he's hot, got married. Dude.

Aww Shannon wouldn't let me have just a tiny bit of missletoe, I want some bad, I don't know why, I think it would be soooo cool to kiss someone under missletoe, I've never done it before. hmm. I also think it would be awesome to make out with someone in the pouring down rain. sigh, maybe again one day.
Kisses are fun.

Oh I changed my icon again to the oh so cute bunny playind ddr. cutsey.

I also have some new quotes, Ready:

"Big ego are important, without them we would not have the toaster."

"I'll try anything once, twice if I like it, and three times if it turns me on."

"Curiosity will not cause us to die, only lack of it will."

Ok well that's all for today, love ya.